Starting the new year with Rejection!

What this new year will be looking like for us.

Author

Somehow Exist
January 10, 2026

I hope everyone had a great end of the year and are starting off the new year on the right foot!

I, for one, am NOT ( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ)

But let’s keep trucking along anyways!

Table of Contents

News!

In less than two months my debut novel, How Can I Love you Too?, will OFFICIAL BE PUBLISHED! Finally! In less than a month I will sharing with you guys the cover, and I hope it all finds you well!

Since the release date is so close I’ve started reaching out for ARC reviews- advanced reader copies. Basically- people getting the story before release date in exchange for a review to hopefully get others interested in the story.

Since Amazon doesn’t allow most paid reviews, I don’t have to look nervously at my wallet. What I do need to do, however, is email a BUNCH of people.

Reviewers aren’t getting paid for their reviews, so I absolutely understand them being super picky with what they do and do not read. I am hoping for the best, but it’s a sheer numbers game right now. I need to send out as many requests as possible to have a chance of a good few accepting, and then those who accepted reading all the way through.

Halfway through sending out 8 requests today, I realized that my email had a typo AND a formatting error- and I had already sent that out to four reviewers (☭ ͜ʖ ☭)…

But all I can do is keep moving forward and keep hoping for the best.

Goals for the New Year!

In addition to sending out requests, I also set aside some time on new years eve to create my vision board (^з^)-☆Chu!!

This is the first side of my vision board, very warm and welcoming colors to the left with cooler colors on the right. Essentially, I want to care for my skin, lips, and hair this year. With savings in the center, being a “baddie on a budget” as some would say. And Judy hops alligns with the business women, someone working on progressing her career. I included a sleeping Jerry to remind myself to rest, as well aas adding in monetary goals. Why spend everything on 5 below products when I can save up for a new desk chair?

This is the slightly more “scandelous” side of my mood board, with relationships and romance taking the center. I included mangoes and sushi- eating healthy but also setting aside time to eat less healthy foods. Striking a proper balance this year. Some eccentric clothes to remind myself to wear what I have in my closet, and wear it with confidence instead of hiding it. I included pictures of places and apartments, because along with savings I want to buy property some day soon!

Along with my vision board I set up my new bullet journal for the 2026 year! I’ll be posting that journal, and last year’s, in here sometime soon. The biggest goal I have for my current self, however, is to take dance classes. That’s a whole story as to why- for another time.

The best news I could ever ask for.

This is a secret (unless I already let it slip) but I’ve been wanting to go to law school for a while. When I graduated high school and went into my undergrad degree, I was focused! I planned it all out to graduate a semester early (which I did do), and then have a gap year +.5 to myself before going into law school. I messed up, and now it’s going to end up being a whole two year gap.

See, the problem was- I missed my exam by a singular day (๑˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥), I cried so hard in the car that day. I processed my feelings, then took the test again- remotely this time. I took this remote exam on my laptop in a hotel, somewhere in CT, after kicking out my roommate because I had to be alone to do the exam. My LSAT score was the best I got - 157. None of my practice exams had gone there, I guess I locked in.

Thanks to my poor financial standing from last year (15k in credit card debt), I had my application fee waived for school applications. I applied to 6 schools in my area- and so far 4 have responded back: ALL SAID YES!

When the first yes came back I let out a sigh of relief, even if everyone else said no, I had one school that wanted me. Then the other two acceptance emails came in. And then, the 4th acceptance letter.

I read the email, confused. “It says I got a scholarship, but won’t say how much?” Then I slowed down to read it properly- I was gifted a FULL RIDE SCHOLARSHIP

(ﾉ>ω<)ﾉ :｡･::･ﾟ’★,｡･::･ﾟ’☆

Excuse my language- “HOLY F___ing SH____”

Even if this school isn’t exactly highly rated or prestigeous, free is free. I never thought I would ever be given the opportunity to study for free???? Excuse me?

My heart was pounding man. I’m slowing down to not accept the scholarship too quickly. Who knows? Maybe the last two schools will also give me full ride scholarships? (One can dream)

I wanted to share this fun moment with you, and I hope things turn out great for everyone this year! Stay away from the flu and chase your dreams!