It started with beyblade, and that was the problem.

The Past Channel

When I first started my channel, my focus was very much on cartoons/anime. So of course, that is what most of what I was talking about pertained to. And yet, that also held me back I started my YouTube channel at 18, but by the time I was 21 I was trying to do different things.

Instead of uploading clips or tlaking about anime, I was doing discussions on writing techniques, or making powerpoints of topics I found interesting. And even though my subscriber count stayed consistent, my engagement sank. I had the goal of monetization in mind, but with no engagement that goal only grew further and further away.

I then felt constrained in what I was able to record, due to how I started my channel originally. In the end, I deleted every single video I had uploaded, and then deleted the back ups on my computer. All evidence of those videos, at least on my end, was gone.

Advertising and FOMO

Why I’m Debating

I want to talk, not write, talk, about the cover of my book. “I want to give the full experience of how happy I am. I would love to do a livestream, where people could ask questions. I would love to record myself flipping through the book.

But other than that- I miss making the videos. I would excitedly set up my camera to record me making a bullet journal spread, only to see no one even clicked on the video. Sometimes I would film myself playing Minecraft, but I wouldn’t be able ot record my voice because I knew someone IRL would interupt or be nosey.

Something that held me back was not showing my face. Faceless content can be profitable, and yet I could never nail it. I can’t animate or draw, and the alternative is an insane amoutn of clip art. Which felt so disingenous.

But now, the reasons why I’m holding back from doing it.

• This is not private- people from my real life will find this channel and ask me about it in person.

• I’m not comfortable looking at myself, in pictures or in the mirror

Bullet Nournaling, budgeting, Life Improvement, Cartoons, Stories

What would this new channel be?

The niche I alligned with my channel in the beginning was an important part of my life- cartoons. But it is not the only portion of my life that I liked. As I’ve grown, I’ve discovered a love for other things.

1. I would be posting videos about my books, but I reject the thought of being an exclusively “AuthorTube” channel

2. I’ve been bullet journaling for 5 years, next year will be year 6. I would love to film videos of me flipping through and reflecting, or a time lapse of me designing my pages

3. Vlogs, I’ve grown obsessed with showers. I like trying body scrubs, shampoos, face care, and I’d love to share it. I also go to hotels for work from time to time, I’d like to talk about the hotels I visit.

4. Crafts, I like to make things. I’ll crochet and knit, I’ve tried learning to use EVA foam. I’ve played with clay before. I would love to get my hands busy, and probably get some pointers with others because I keep getting lost of confused

There are so many aspects of my life I’d like to explore, so I don’t know if I could niche anything down to be tangible. But, I would like to try.

What do you think I should do?

Should I push aside my fears and try again?

Or just let it go and focus exclusively on this?